BLUE

Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely

Where do you go when you're blue

Where do you go when you're lonely

I'll follow you.


Turns out I haven't truly let you go, it's hard to get over you. You make me cry a thousand way, laugh a million way, like all the sweet little things you whisper to me in the phone, like how much you tell me you miss me. I'm thinking of you too much lately.

Some days I cant the smell of you on my skin or the taste of you on my lips, but I don’t know why. Maybe it just makes me miss you too much, remembering being with you and knowing I can’t be with you right now. It makes me think of you leaving and I start to feel scared because I’ve never had to do this before, and if there’s anything I cant stand it’s missing someone. Alone in your room, when the suns gone down and it’s getting cold out, it really starts to hit you. It’s like a wave, a burst of reality crashing down on you. Every night it seems, I think too much, and everything I think about seems to make me miss you, or, if it isn’t you, it’s someone else that I shouldn’t be missing. So what do I do when the feeling wont fade, and I know I can’t see you for days? I wonder if I’m that strong, to ignore my lows and willing to wait for all my highs. It’s just so damn hard, when everything makes me think of you sometimes. The sun, and the way it passes through the trees, the water, the sand on my feet, the feel of the grass, the sounds of summer, even strangers walking down the street, everything brings me back to the memories I have of you. Then, no matter how hard I have scrubbed and washed and saturated myself with perfume and sweat, I can still smell you, still taste you.