Non je ne Regrette Rien

Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
Ni le mal, tout ça m'est bien égal
Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
C'est payé, balayé, oublié
Je me fous du passé

Avec mes souvenirs, j'ai allumé le feu
Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs, je n'ai plus besoin d'eux
Balayées les amours, avec leurs trémolos
Balayées pour toujours, je repars à zéro

Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
Ni le mal, tout ça m'est bien égal
Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
Car ma vie car mes joies
Aujourd'hui, ça commence avec toi

I absolutely love people who:

Walk over to me just to say hi when I’m with my friends.

Hugs me with both arms. Not the half-assed one armed hugs.

Starts the conversation & keep it going on for hours.

Do stupid but cute things just to make me laugh.

Accepts the fact that I can’t go out much.

Still likes me even though I don’t smoke/do drugs.

Loves to smile, smells good & dresses nicely.

Are reading this.

This list is endless, I could go on & on. I love you guys. <3

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
— Bob Marley

I am done with exams. They were O.K. I could have done much better but there is no point in regretting.

I am feeling a little lost and confused because I am not sure what I want to do next.

I can finally rest and not be stressed all the time!

Now I need to catch up on my dramas and stuff!

LIFE IS AWESOMEEE XD

I miss daddy so much...

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?

I took a deep breath and let go.

She’s the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stare hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who rather gets hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who stay loyal to one guy when she learns how to love. She is the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts. She is the type of girl I am.

study, study, focus in nothing else but studies.

Desire

Out of the blue.

Somewhere along the way

My hopefulness turned to sadness,

Somewhere along the way

My sadness turned to bitterness,

Somewhere along the way

My bitterness turned to anger,

Somewhere along the way

My anger turned to vengeance,

Somewhere along the way

exacting vengence gave excitement,

Somewhere along the way

that excitement turned to pleasure,

Somewhere along the way

that pleasure turned to madness,

But sooner or later that kind of madness turns into pain.


-Casablancas-

It takes a second to meet someone,

a minute to know someone,

an hour to like someone,

a day to fall in love with someone.

And a lifetime to forget someone.

im Alkoholiker und drogenabhängig.

Jerk, jerk, jerk, jerk.. Liar, liar, liar, liar.. Will not fall for your lies anymore.

to lose life or love?

I was always careless as a child.

And there's a part of me that still believes,

My soul will soar above the trees.

But a desperate fear flows through my blood,

That our dead loves buried beneath the mud.

You'll get over it.. it's the cliches that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter you life for ever. You dont get over it because "it" is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never loses. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?

Final night

Had a great night yesterday. Haven't had such fun before. Will definetly miss all the fun and great times we spend. ^^

Have I told you lately that I love you?

Well dear, I'm telling you now.

it's never easy

Endings are never easy. I always build them up so much in my head that they can’t possibly live up to my expectations and I just end up disappointed. I’m not even sure why it matters to me so much how things end. I guess it’s because we all want to believe that what we do is very important. That people hang on to our every word, that they care what we think. The truth is, you should consider yourself lucky if you even occasionally get to make someone, anyone, feel a little better.

Cant you understand?

Just say Im naive. I've finally see the clearer picture after what I've been thru lately. I don't want to be more than friend. You're like the cannibal,take a bite of my heart. I'm afraid I won't get out alive. I tried to run and hide. Your killing from inside.

Loving The Impossible

At first, when we truly love someone, our greatest fear is that the loved one will stop loving us. What we should fear and dread, of course, is that we won’t stop loving them, even after they’re dead and gone. I still love you. And sometimes, my friend, the love that I have, and can’t give to you, crushes the breath from my chest. Sometimes, even now, my heart is drowning in a sorrow that has no stars without you, and no laughter, and no sleep.

BLUE

Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely

Where do you go when you're blue

Where do you go when you're lonely

I'll follow you.


Turns out I haven't truly let you go, it's hard to get over you. You make me cry a thousand way, laugh a million way, like all the sweet little things you whisper to me in the phone, like how much you tell me you miss me. I'm thinking of you too much lately.

Some days I cant the smell of you on my skin or the taste of you on my lips, but I don’t know why. Maybe it just makes me miss you too much, remembering being with you and knowing I can’t be with you right now. It makes me think of you leaving and I start to feel scared because I’ve never had to do this before, and if there’s anything I cant stand it’s missing someone. Alone in your room, when the suns gone down and it’s getting cold out, it really starts to hit you. It’s like a wave, a burst of reality crashing down on you. Every night it seems, I think too much, and everything I think about seems to make me miss you, or, if it isn’t you, it’s someone else that I shouldn’t be missing. So what do I do when the feeling wont fade, and I know I can’t see you for days? I wonder if I’m that strong, to ignore my lows and willing to wait for all my highs. It’s just so damn hard, when everything makes me think of you sometimes. The sun, and the way it passes through the trees, the water, the sand on my feet, the feel of the grass, the sounds of summer, even strangers walking down the street, everything brings me back to the memories I have of you. Then, no matter how hard I have scrubbed and washed and saturated myself with perfume and sweat, I can still smell you, still taste you.

Sink into despair

I was taught to fight

I was taught to win

I never thought I could fail.

I have fallen in too deep

though I saw it all around

never thought I could be affected

it is so strange the way things turn

got to walk out of here,

I can't take it anymore

DONT HURT HER, DONT CHANGE HER

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

Time has flown by and with my past lessons, hurt, love and disappointments I have finally learned to love myself...I control my sadness, my happiness and joy; I don't put up with nonsense, people or situations that are literally bringing me down or wasting my time. I love myself too much to allow anyone or situation to have that much control over me. Love thy self, and for others to have their own meaning in life

2nd week

was fine till i saw him standing on the corridoor this morning. Bad memories flash in again.

I Can't Carry On. Im Breathless.

Insecurities keep growing, wasted energies are flowing ,anger, pain and sadness beckon.Knowing you was a misfortune, letting you creeps into my life was a huge mistake, allowed you wandering in my mind was a disaster. But when it comes to you, I can't decide.You're tainted, I'm shaking.It breaks my heart to see you cry, the reason why I run and hide, it's the only way I'll stay alive.

I hope time could turn, hope you could turn and turn round,tide's changing, time's flowing, whatever is done, is done. It's too late to change. Words engrave deep within, leaving an infinite marking. I know you cant see, I look strong altogether, thou inside Im as fragile as glass.Still I bleed, still I wait to heal a wound. What I need are more bandages.You've succeeded in creating misery in my life. Why won't you quit?Why you gotta go and do me like that?Why you gotta hide the truth?Why you gotta go and play me like that?Why you have to act a fool?

I deserve a bullet in my chest, I don't care as long as this ache stops, the disturbance and whisper in my head end. I've gotta stop my mind.It's driving me insane. It will not let me live. Always so negative.One minute I am fine,the next I've lost my mind.I need to take control of my mind and it isn't listening to me.

Hurt

Gonna break down and cry any minute. Nö One will know. Very disapointed in you, unexpected words Stab me. Trying hard to pretend I never heard those words from you. Tired in pleasing you.What more you want from me? I'm not in the position of giving right now. Why is he unlike other guy? Staying Away and stand back, afraid of getting hurt.

Discontented and rather dissapointed with the outcome. Should I give it a try again?

Hate that lady!! I sigh them, so I received them!! My patience has a limit too ok!! I don't wanna argue and elude you cause I respect you as an elderly, this doesn't give you the right to cross the fine line. Saying my dad unreasonable, you're the one that's unreasonable accusing my dad of trespassing your property. Uneducated, uncivilized, unreasonable, disrespectful, loutish,uncouth.

D-DAY

A Pessimist would say: D-Day this coming saturday, 4 months of hell, curfew till the end of STPM.

An optimist would tell: Live today, Pay later. Enjoy your last week of freedom.

Play Wise, Play Fool to achieve your Goal

Came across this article in The Economic Times Mag.

There once lived a great mathematician in a village outside Ujjain. He was often called by the local king to advice on matters related to the economy. His reputation had spread as far as Taxila in the North and Kanchi in the South. So it hurt him very much when the village headman told him, "You may be a great mathematician who advises the king on economic matters but your son does not know the value of gold or silver."

The mathematician called his son and asked, "What is more valuable - gold or silver?" "Gold," said the son. "That is correct. Why is it then that the village headman makes fun of you, claims you do not know the value of gold or silver? He teases me every day. He mocks me before other village elders as a father who neglects his son. This hurts me. I feel everyone in the village is laughing behind my back because you do not know what is more valuable, gold or silver. Explain this to me, son."

So the son of the mathematician told his father the reason why the village headman carried this impression. "Every day on my way to school, the village headman calls me to his house. There, in front of all village elders, he holds out a silver coin in one hand and a gold coin in other. He asks me to pick up the more valuable coin. I pick the silver coin. He laughs, the elders jeer, everyone makes fun of me. And then I go to school. This happens every day. That is why they tell you I do not know the value of gold or silver."

The father was confused. His son knew the value of gold and silver, and yet when asked to choose between a gold coin and silver coin always picked the silver coin. "Why don't you pick up the gold coin?" he asked. In response, the son took the father to his room and showed him a box. In the box were at least a hundred silver coins. Turning to his father, the mathematician's son said, "The day I pick up the gold coin the game will stop. They will stop having fun and I will stop making money."

The bottom line is,

Sometimes in life, we have to play the fool because our seniors and our peers, and sometimes even our juniors like it. That does not mean we lose in the game of life. It just means allowing others to win in one arena of the game, while we win in the other arena of the game. We have to choose which arena matters to us and which arenas do not. Ponder upon it.

Giving up

Feel so guilty fór letting dad settle my 400$ phone bill. So I have finally make up my mind to give up my phone voluntarily. It's fór my own good.

what a day !!

Nearly got involve in an accident this evening. Was tailgating a Honda CRV, without warning that fellow stepped on the brake,petrified I couldn't hit brake on time so I sway my car to the right. Luckily there wasn't any car approaching that lane.

Anyway, on the same evening JNC, TT and I went for a movie. =) Toy Story 3's awesome. Love''Spanish'' Buzz and Ken. Great storyline, pretty hilarious, bit sentimental in the end.It made me laugh and cry.It kidda reminds me of all my abandon toys.Haha. I'll have to watch it again to catch everything buzz and woody said as I was too busy laughing. The 3D effect was disappointing and lousy. Should've stick to the 2D.

Saw a nice skirt and it was on SALE!!I know I weren't suppose to buy that and I knew that I own many similar garment at home, but i bought it, can't help myself . XD. Seriously need to control my spending habit.

Oh God.... ....

Mood: dreadful, anxious, disheartening


Argg!! Feel like hitting myself on the head, how could I've done all the silly mistake!!! Marks got deducted here and there.stupid me!! I've studied so hard for my chemistry, yet the outcome's depressing and rueful.I deserved a better outcome.:( 2 more marks to pass, 2 more marks to get an 'A'.... So close, yet so far.

Be optimistic, people keep telling me. How could I be optimistic when I'm about to see permanent red markings on my report card for the first time in my life. Show dad my papers and risk jeopardize everything I had? My freedom,my personal space.I'm certain that dad will confiscate my phone and computer. Worst, curfews, no outings, no nightlife, no movies, no parties,no shopping.

ME and MY DAD

Dad, you helped me take my first few steps
and those difficult ones too.

Dad, you drove away my frowns and put a smile on my face no matter what the
situations were

Dad, your encouraging words and warm support

Have guided me through all my life

Dad, my personal mentor

Dad, my comforter

Dad, my pal

Dad, my great buddy

I always knew you were there...

Daddy,Happy Father's day
Love you and Always.. <3<3<3

Feeling beautiful on the inside

Lately I'm totally compel in getting that Jessica Alba's perfect body shape. Went on a diet, missed out lots of scrumptious mouth-watering food. Swam for 4 times per week. Was it all worthwhile?

People always say, beauty is only skin deep,what's inside that counts. Then why are we still putting lots of effort on our outer appearance such as weight, height, hair length, or face complexion? Shouldn't we scrutinize to the important or primary characteristics that make and mould a person?

True beauty goes much beyond the skin. Be beautiful by being yourself!! Be nothing but yourself!! So from now onwards,suffer no more, I'm NOT going on a diet, eat like I would normally eat, yes to FRENCH FRIES,ICE-CREAM and CHESSE CAKE. Being beautiful too means knowing that you are beautiful. Not allowing others to put you down by making you think or feel that you are not beautiful.

Tomorrow's father's day and Im gonna fill my stomach with food!!!! XD

My angel holds me tonight.

Read this piece of poem recently. Immediately think of him. Strong message and truly feels every words.

I’m happy as can be,

An Angel watches over me.

Keeping me safe each day,

Guiding me all the way.

I know I’m really special,

Loved by my Guardian Angel.

As Angel wings unfold,

My riches aren’t of gold.

Sprinkled with the Angel dust,

So I believe and trust.

I’ll never walk alone,

I’ve an Angel of my own!


P/S.. My dear you're my angel, I know deep in my heart =)

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